The Protector of My Solitude

"The highest form of love is to be the protector of another person's solitude" 

~ Rainer Maria Rilke

I was inspired to create this after seeing this post by @juliandemedeiros because it captures perfectly how I feel about my person 😍

And this really came as a surprise to me too because I used to be a person who needed my "me time" and loved my solo life so much. And no one before Nick had changed that. But every since we met, little by little, we got so glued to each other and now it's completely different 😅

I was just telling my bestie last week how clingy and "disgusting" me and Nick have become 😅😅😅

It's amazing how life can surprise you and how things can always change. I have no idea where this life is going to take us but what I do know is that we're going to enjoy the ride 😍

I love you, Nick Ryan.💗

And as always, counting the minutes till you get home.

Credit: v/o by @juliandemedeiros

Hello, it's me again.

I found my old blog today.

It was nice seeing it after all these years and taking a stroll down memory lane, reliving lotsa good memories and remembering people who were important to me way back when.

But oh how things have changed since. 

So, I decided to start fresh with a new blog to pen down my thoughts in my latest era 😎

Where do I start? 

Well, I'm Singaporean now. Been living here for 10 years and shock of all shocks -- I am married! Yup, the girl who never wanted to get married did just that😅 ... and he is truly the love of my life 😍

I achieved what I wanted to in my career, which I never thought was possible when I first moved here cuz it was like starting over, all over again. But I did it -- I became a Director, excuse me, a Global Director in a reputable international media agency and while still in my 30s nonetheless *pats self on back*. 

I had a loving family, I was more than financially stable and for all intents and purposes -- I was happy. 

But then everything changed. 

In Dec 2022, I fell terribly ill. My lung collapsed from a bad case of pneumonia, sepsis set in and the doctors said I wouldn't make it. With whatever lucidity I had left I said goodbye to my family, made a will and made peace with the thought that this was it for me. 

Thankfully I woke up in 2023... but things were never the same again because the worst wasn't over.

One by one, I lost almost everything -- my home, my job, my family... everything stable in my life came crashing down... and I've been trying to build it back, brick-by-brick, every since.

Phew.

That was heavy 😅

Which brings me to where we are today -- still building them bricks back.

Since that fateful incident life has been one challenge after another making me feel like I've been stuck in 2023 forever! But, I'm learning to be more positive these days and I think the winds are finally changing for us. Just last week we hit another setback and I had to have surgery (of all the things we literally can't afford right now 😓) and now I'm in recovery which I'm told will take another 1-2 months. But, I really feel like this time, this....well, "time" I've been given will be put to some good -- healing for me and my soul. And some of it starts with this blog. 

So it's nice to be back here again... and here's to the new days ahead of us. 💖